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It's finally the 1st of November. October is long gone and one more year shall pass before I get to experience my favorite month again. Somehow, this year's October didn't meet my ecstatic expectations. Besides the TTKD, the whole month was a tad dull. *sadness.

This year's November 1st was different. There was less food and less people. I was really sad about it because it's like every event that has happend where relatives were present seemed to feel so dry and boring. I'm not sure if it's just me, but even lola thinks that the past events that passed like the fiesta and halloween seem to bum her out. She constantly keeps telling me that special occassions feel like ordinary days for her. Maybe life's getting a little boring too fast too soon.

I was frustrated that I forgot to bring the camera tonight. I was hoping to get some photos (because you know how I love to take snapshots of everything) there and maybe get some ideas for my entries on 100_snapshots. I stopped posting photos after my 3rd batch because I couldn't find any more to post (If only my USB was still alive, I would've had more to show).

I really felt so at peace being at the cemetery this year. For some odd reason, I felt this light feeling inside as we arrived at the spot were my lolo and his brother are buried. As I was sitting with my cousin Armie near the lapidas of my lolos, I couldn't help but realize that my lolo's (husband of my lola) birthday is on February 12? I mean, how could I not have noticed this before? It's such a coincidence that the on the same date 3 years ago, Arence and I became a couple. Now I will never forget my lolo's birthday because of this.

Tonight, I have devoured more than 15 pcs of pork-shrimp siomai, 1 Pan de Manila pandesal, one piece of chicken lollipop and chicken wings and had two ice cream cones. The variety of food was little compared to last year, but it didn't matter, I had a full tummy in the end anyway.

I still feel somewhat sad right now. I don't know what's depressing me lately but it's really bugging me. The last thing I need right now are depressing days and melancholic moments. If it's the weather, I hope it brightens my mood in the next couple of days or I might punch the next person I see in the face. RAD!